It's Christmas!

The zombie, when dearest had no sleep for more than 24 hours.

Poooor boy...If only I can cook and feed him. He must have been too tired to even eat..

Simple daily sharing....

19th October 2015

When he do silly things to make me smile, and I had a hard time giving the poker face XD

Lubbbb you

17th October 2015

Favorite picture of all time. Look at it everyday.

We had a heart-to-heart talk after a long week of being 'apart'. Felt great because I finally felt free and at ease of burden I had long kept. I've accused him for not caring enough, which had hurt him and probably pierced through his heart. With that, I felt awful, yet I was relieve for being able to get it out of my lungs.

Hence, this is for my personal reference if I ever to accuse him again, I have to make sure I read this back! For the great things he had done, I would never forget, as he was and still is a great man.

I had probably talked without letting my thoughts run through my cognitive function yesterday. But now that I am sane, I can recall so much great memories we had together. This is a message for the future me in case I lose my mind again.

Dear Me, always remember that..........

1. He never failed to drive me around, especially back to and fro from my hostel. Carrying my heavy bags weighing like a sumo around. Despite being tired and sleepy after being stuck in the jam, he never complained.

2. He constantly mail postcards he had bought from all the places he had visited back in the UK

3. He reassured that he will never let me go and that I am worth all his effort and time

4. He was there to give me the biggest hug and wipe away my tears when I cried like a "skinny cry baby"

5. He had indirectly motivated me through my studies by buying me a notebook, bookmarks and recently a laptop. He even helped me with some anatomical drawings :)

6. He never fail to celebrate my birthdays and our anniversaries

7. He surprised me with awesome gifts (a big penguin and a small penguin, a montage, an album filled with our photos and stories, flowers, a necklace)

8. He massaged my back when it hurts

9. He cooked for me the dishes he had learnt while we were in our long distance, to make sure I eat well

10. He paid for most of our meals and trips

11. He was patient with me. Even when I fall asleep while we watched a movie together or while he drove to our trip's destinations.

12. He soothed me so that I can sleep well

13. He ran to the shopping mall which was a distance from a Naan restaurant just to get my watch fixed

14. The way he looked into my eyes, held my hand, smiled and said that I am beautiful.

15. When he made sure I never wash the dishes alone when I am at his home

16. When he covered me with the blanket to make sure I do not catch a cold


Yet, I've dismissed them so easily.
Nevertheless, I thank you for everything you had done for me.
I was never mistaken for the man I've chosen, and I had always been feeling lucky despite of the roller coaster ride we had.

Images drawn from Doodle. Cute :)

16th October 2015

Today, I tried something new. Since he always told me to explore the world. There are so much to see and do outside.

A friend personal messaged me via facebook to ask if I was interested to go for "Night of Fright 3, 2015" in Sunway Lagoon because she had a free ticket.

Instantly I was like, WHY NOT?! Although I had to drive alone to and fro from home, thinking a ghost might just follow along.........

In the end, I had so much fun screaming my lungs out :)
Great way to de-stress, train your lungs, burn lotsa calories and of course, have fun with your buddies.

15th October 2015

I felt so tired suddenly. Because I feel alone.

But he said he will never stop giving up on me. In fact, he never did. He still constantly updated me about things he did.

A trail at a technical university in Slupsk

A place where my dear did his work in Poland for the community.

He said he will miss Poland when he shared this picture. Because it is his last picture of Poland and it was time for him to return to Plymouth.

I guess Poland must be a beautiful place then :)

An instant noodle he ate upon returning to Plymouth. 

He must be really tired after all the long trip.

Looks yummy.

I wish I was there to cook for him a proper meal and prepare him for a warm shower. He must be really tired. Probably felt more tired than me. And I never understood. Yet he remained so strong. 

I promised to be his pillar of strength, seems like it is the opposite way now :(

The handsome boy made it to the local newspaper of Poland. Wow.

A secret message we've created for ourselves :D

Yours truly...

10th October 2015

Gdansk, a place in Poland my dearest visited today. 

On the way to the city, he complained of the urge to defecate in the train. How cute when he rushed to a restaurant to ease himself :D

While he is busy discovering new place, I on the other hand attended a Geriatric Medicine conference in IMU. A field that cares for the elderly, an antonym of Paediatrics I would say :) I've learnt that elderly people not only capable of doing things for themselves if you do not stop them from it and instead encourage them, they are also in need of psychosocial support and constant cognitive function trigger. 

Simply done at home by asking "what day is it today?" 

Or "please watch the news for me today, I would love to hear it when I come back from work today because I would be too busy to catch up with them at work".

Enough said, great day for the both of us!

9th October 2015

Woke up to another update from my dearest.

Beef for dinner that even I was tempted to try

At the beach in Ustka where he lives. A place where he saw an orange moon and got so fascinated over. And then I wonder, how come he wasn't excited when i told him about the full orange moon in Malaysia, he probably thought it was due to the weather or haze XD

Can you spot the cat? Dearest was observing a cat observing the birds.

Glad you had a great day there! :)

8th October 2015

3 days since he is in Poland for his university curriculum. Nevertheless, I still felt close to him because he never failed to update me about his days. The commitment he had showered me with, proved how blessed I am.

He is there to propose projects for the natives living there. Wish he is able to build OUR home one day :)

Always proud of him deep down, because I know he always tries his best to do something.

4 October 2015

The day when I disappoint him and made him teared.
But I've learnt that he not only confessed how much he loved me and do not wish to let go, he also proved to me how determined and how much he valued this relationship.

I am grateful to have encountered such great man in my life.

Maybe I had to trust you even more, like how you did in this picture :)